This is probably the post I've been most excited about catching up with. The difference a month makes!
Last Friday I weighed in at exactly 20 lbs down from where I started. This had gotten a little crazy during the month of July and I basically took the whole month off. But, August, I owned. I lost a little over 10 lbs in August and I was able to stick to the goals I'd set for myself. I've set new goals for myself for Sept, and I'll share those in a bit.
As you read on Monday, I was able to finish my first ever 5k on Saturday. We had a great time and I look forward to doing it again next year. Although, I'll probably do it with my kids next year and walk it. It was almost impossible for us to run so that wouldn't be my plan. But, I had a friend approach me last week about doing another 5k on Sept 30th. She knew I wanted to do a timed race, and this one is. I agreed and now... off we go! Race #2 in a little over 3 weeks. WHAT?! But I'm actually really glad because it'll keep me on track with my training.
Before I even did the 5k on Saturday, I'd decided that I wanted to do the 5k that's part of the Indianapolis Marathon on Oct 20th. Over the last few days, Aaron has decided that he wants to run with me then and for his sake, I think we'll register for the 5k that's part of the Monumental Marathon on Nov 3rd instead. That'll give him another 2 weeks to train. We have friends running in that race as well, just not the 5k. That hasn't been totally decided, so I'll keep you update on that.
Ok, onto those Sept goals...
I need to drink water. Lots more water! So, goal #1 is to make sure I'm getting at least 65oz of water every day.
I want to run more than I walk for the 5k on Sept 30th. My goal right now is to finish in under 50 mins.
I need to get my eating back on track. I've held stead at the 20 lbs down this last week so it's time to get into gear and get back to eating good stuff instead of just 1200 calories of bad stuff. My goal is to have fruit or veggies at every meal regardless of what or where I'm eating.
My birthday is in 16 days. I'd like to be down 6 lbs in those 16 days. I kow that's a push, but I've done it before and I know I can do it again. Hoping for a good weigh in this week!
I wasn't absolutely dreading this AM's weigh in because I knew I'd lost so much water weight over the last few days. But, I was suprised when I stepped on the scale and it said -3. That's the lowest I've been since I started this whole process. And it's 10 lbs lost since Sunday. Obviously, a lot of that is water weight, but still.
My run last night was pretty good. I started off really strong. I got new running shoes which made a huge difference. I was going pretty strong with the 1:30 run then 1:30 walk. I was able to do that until about the 22 min mark. Then I went to 1 min/1 min. I did one cycle like that and went back to the 1:30/1:30. I'm pretty pleased because that's almost exactly where I left off 3 weeks ago. Tomorrow I'll do all 1:30/1:30, and then hopefully on Sat and I can 1:30/1. Then next week I can start the 2min/1min.
This is going to get deep for a min so hang with me... I've realized over the last few years that I'm a people pleaser. It's not that I haven't always known that, but until recently, I didn't realize the depth of it. I'm so concerned about letting people down that I normally quit half way or just don't do it (whatever IT is) to begin with. Prime example.... I've been so nervous about not being able to finish the 5k. And I know, in reality, even if I have to walk it all, I'll finish. BUT, I'm training to run it, not walk it. And I just feel like people would be so dissapointed if I didn't run it. And I started stressing about that, so I started making excuses and just stopped training all together. Then I got stressed out because I was behind and now it's crunch time and I really may not
Last night as I was running I was thinking about all the people who would be proud to know I was at it again, but I had to stop myself and ask who I was doing this for. And the honest answer is, I don't really know. Yeah, I'll be happy when I'm skinny and healthy and can do things I haven't been able to do in a while and God calls us to be healthy and live physically in a Christlike way, but is that my true motivation or am I doing this because I want people to be proud of me and approve of me?
Stepped on the scale today and I was somewhat nervous what the outcome would be. I have only been counting calories loosely the last 2 days and the weekend was somewhat of a total bust. So, I was thankful to see that there was no movement. I can be happy with not losing as long as I'm not gaining!
I'll start up running for this week tonight. I kind of wish I wouldn't have waited so long to start this week, but I was going to do it last night and then I realized I'd run again on Thurs which is forcasted to be 103 degrees here. I know there are alot of people who run in that type of weather, but I don't want to if I don't have to! So, I'll start tonight so I skip tomorrow.
I've really been battling emotional eating the last few days. I've been pretty stressed out and that leads me to either not eat or eat whenever I'm feeling frustrated. Crazy as this sounds, what has helped me is actually picturing Jesus sitting there in my kitchen asking me if I really need to eat that. Most of the time it's instantly obvious that I'm just eating to try and relieve stress (which never really happens).
I mentioned in my post last week that I was somewhat concerned with our mission trip to Toronto. Now I'm pretty concerned. I called the hotel and they don't have any type of exercise room. I know nothing about the neighborhood, so I'm not sure if I can run there. So, if anything I'll be running around the parking lot. 2 of the girls in our youth group are doing summer gym for school, and they have to get 3 hours of exercise in during the week, so I figured that'll be good motivation for me too! Someone suggested we run the stairs at the hotel! That makes me cringe just thinking about it! The food is the part I'm worried about. We'll be eating breakfast at the hotel in the AM, so I can do oatmeal or something then. Lunch will be served by host families, so I'll be at the mercy of the families we're working with. Then dinner will be eaten out every night. I guess I need to do alot of studying up on what the best choices are for eating out!
This Week: -3
It is AMAZING to me how much weight my body fluctuates. On Saturday, I stepped on the scale and I was FINALLY past those 5 lbs I couldn't lose. Infact, I beat them by 2 lbs. So I was down a total of 7 lbs from where I started. I did nothing different for the next few days and on Monday when I stepped on the scale I was up almost 10 lbs! This mornging when I weighed, I was down 6. So, still past my goal by a lb, but seriously! It's crazy. If I can't beat this water weight fluctuation, it's going to be a LOOOOOOONG road.
With that being said, I know I'm not drinking enough water. Infact, I'm not really drinking any. I haven't been buying any pop (or soda) because the little money we have needs to be spent on other groceries. So I haven't really been drinking anything. So, I know I'm not helping the problem. So, my goal for this week (now until next Wed) will be to get all my water in!
Since technically I hit my first goal, I'm setting my 2nd goal. Aaron's going to be recieving his district license at a service on July 29th. My goal is to be down at least 10 by then. Doesn't sound like a steep goal, but our mission trip to Toronto is thrown in there. I'm not sure how we'll be eating so I'm not positive how much control I'll have of my diet for 7 days. So, this might be a little tough. Also, the hotel we're staying at doesn't have an exercise room, so I won't have a indoor place to run. The neighborhood might be ok, but I won't know that till I get there. I might just end up running around our hotel. I can't afford to skip a week of training!
I love that saying! It's truth. Even if you're not running marathon's at record breaking pace, you're still doing something! I try and remind myself of this while I'm training. (Image pinned here
Well, today is the day. I've been weighing on and off through out the week so I have an idea of where I was heading for today's post. The good news is that I'm down 4 lbs. The bad news is that I did not break the 5 lbs I've been trying to break since January. But, this is as close as I've gotten. So, I know if I just stick to it, it will happen.
Last week I posted about decreasing my calories and seeing if that helped. I set my calorie trackers on Spark People to a lower calorie range and it's definitely made a difference. I'm eating between 1300-1500 calories a day. So, all in all I'm pleased. I'm not feeling super sucessful just yet because I want to beat these stupid 5 lbs. 1 more lbs to go, I know, but still. It's my first goal. I'm impatient (imagine that) and I'm ready to be able to see results now. I'm torn because I feel like I've been at this long enough that I should notice more results. But, I know that just cutting my calories changed things and this won't happen over night.
There is a saying that I keep repeating to myself...
"It takes 4 weeks for you to notice your body changing. It takes 8 weeks for your friends, and 12 weeks for the rest of the world. Give it 12 weeks. Don't quit."
I ran again last night and ended up only doing half of my run. I was supposed to run tonight, but I won't be home, so I decided to do it last night and not take a recovery day. I only ended up doing half my run. I walked the rest of the time then decided to sit by the lake and spend a little time with God. It was a BEAUTIFUL night and I'd really struggled with some things yesterday and I decided that it would be a great time to sit and just listen to God. It was the best part of my day. I'll pick up running again on Thursday and add Saturday that way I can make sure I get 3 full runs in this week.
So, here's to hoping that next week I can bust that final lb and be done with these stubborn 5 lbs forever!
Well, I'm thinkin' Wednesday will be my least favorite of all the days I post. I've committed to making this blog real and true to life. And for me, that includes trying to lose weight. At this point I don't have big secrets or tips to share. I did Weight Watchers for a while and I was struggling more than I was having success. There are a few blogs that I follow who's writers have lost significant amounts of weight (You can see those here
) and they give a lot of good advice. Plus, I have a few friends who've lost significant amounts of weight and they all seem to be invaluable resources.
So here's the skinny, I've got about 130lbs to lose to get me to the top of my "healthy" weight range. I've already lost about 20 lbs from my highest non pregnancy weight. Although, honestly I didn't have to work hard for that to come off. It came off pretty quickly not long after Macie was born and I was nursing and got gingivostomatitis
and I couldn't really eat or drink anything. I lived on coke and milkshakes for almost a week.
Since then I've been couting calories (1800 a day) and I've started the Couch to 5k running program. BUT, I've lost zero weight. Infact I weighed myself in perperation for today's post and nothing. There was zero movement on the scale. So, I think maybe I need to decrease my calories a little bit. I'm thinking maybe 1600. The recommended daily amount of calories for me is actually 1500, but I wasn't qute ready for that just yet, but it may work out that's what I have to do.
What is perfectly clear that is that I'm not doing something right. I've been couting calories for 2 weeks now and I've only had maybe 3 days where I've exceded my calories. So, something isn't working. I don't think I'll be posting my actual weight online. Not yet at least. Not quite ready for that, but I am going to be brave and post a before picture. This was taken this morning. So it's recent.
So, here goes Weigh In Wednesdays. Hopefully, next week I'll have better news to report!