But, it's not easy.
But, it hurts.
But, I don't think I'm strong enough.
I've found myself saying more often- "Ok, God, right now would be great. I think this is the best time for you to come through. This is the best time to work it out, to make it happen." My list of "it's" is growing longer and longer.
Even still, I'm reminded on a daily basis that God is my help, my encourager, my provider, and those hopes and dreams I hide deep in my heart, he knows them. He knows me. And he has a plan for my life that is so much more than whatever I might have dreamed or planned.
My problem comes in feeling this vs. knowing this. My heart doesn't FEEL this. My head knows it, but I find this a hard promise to rest in on a daily basis. Because I haven't been resting in this truth, I've become overwhelmed with what is not. What is not working, what is not happening, what seems impossible. I've lost my focus on the good in today and I've started looking so far into the future at the "can'ts and won'ts" that I've been overcome with doubt and frustration at what is happening right now.
Lord, help me to rest in the truth that you know me. You know my heart, you know my desire to be more like you. You have a plan for my life that far exceeds the picture I could paint for myself. Give me faith, Lord. And peace. Peace that passes understanding. And create opportunities for obedience. Thank you for THIS DAY, Lord. May I bless your heart today.
Rest in God's truth today, even if it's not something you feel deep in your heart. KNOW that God loves you and wants what's best for you- even if that comes in the form of waiting.