Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
Heading into this year, I knew that God was going to do amazing things. And he has. He's been faithful to Aaron and I on our road towards healing our marriage. He's been faithful in redeeming my life when I had turned from him. He's been faithful to provide for our family. I can't believe it's already April, it's gone by so quickly, and it has seemed like one blessing after another for us.
I've struggled. As I've shared before, Aaron and I decided to step back from ministry when we knew healing our marriage needed to be our top priority. Stepping back and gaining some perspective has been so good for us. But hard. Right now we're praying that we'd be aware of God's leading in our lives. God has placed a calling on our life, of that we're sure. But right now everything just feels like different puzzle pieces that aren't fitting together to create a bigger picture.
There is a song that has really been speaking to my heart recently. It's called Pieces and it's by Meredith Andrews. The chorus rings true and it's been an encouraging reminder that I'm not in control and it's not my job to make everything work.
"...Give Him your wounds, your bruised and broken pieces,
All your questions, all your secrets
You don't have to hide who you are.
You belong to someone greater
Than all your past mistakes and failures.
Rest in who He is-
He knows how to make your pieces fit..."
I've decided that right now, instead of seeking answers from God, I need to seek God and the answers will come. And in truth, this in between place is a little exciting. I know that right now everything seems a little scattered and we can't see how things are coming together, but how great it will be when we see God putting random pieces together to create something beautiful with our lives and our ministry!
Is there something in your life right now that feels like a random puzzle piece? Maybe everything does. Nothing seems to be coming together. Rest in who God is and the promises he's made to you. In Jeremiah 29:11, God promises to give us hope and a future, and to prosper us. It's a rather well known verse, but a lot of people don't read verse 12 and 13-
Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Let's stop seeking answers and seek to have God's heart instead. I know I get caught up in "God, show me this" or "show me that" instead of asking to show me who he is. The more we become like God, and what he wants becomes what we want, I think we'll start seeing the pieces come together. Our eyes will start to see what God sees and we'll see a beautiful puzzle laid out in front of us. May not though. But, if our hearts are seeking God instead of answers, we will find him and we'll be ok with that, because He's enough.
Have a great Thursday!