So, I decided to paint my front door. When we moved into the house, the front door was the most basic type of builder grade white you could get. It clashed with the front of our dark brick house and it just made it all look blah. And I hate blah. So, I did a little color palette research and decided on red. For those of you who know me well, you know this is shocking. I don’t use red for anything. But, I decided to be brave and bold so I drove to the store and picked out a color called “Apple A Day”. It’s bright. Like, fire engine red type bright. But it sure will help with the blahs and it will hopefully draw people in! If you’ve ever changed the color of your front door with paint, you know that you don’t just slap a coat on there and go. This is an in for life type of thing. You better commit to this project for a few days or you’ll have results worse than what you started with. This takes 2093402 layers of paint. Today while I was painting away, I had all the doubts. Why did I do this? I should have just left it white. This is a ridiculous color. It’s going to look terrible. Better start thinking of the next color to cover this. How will this ever work? Do I even have enough paint to make this look normal? Can I just leave it how it is and hope no one notices? Then it hit me... This is me. This door is me. In The Message version, Philippians 1:6 says- There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who started this great work in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very day Christ Jesus appears. When the thought hit me that I’m the door, I started thinking about all the things I question about myself. We’ve been in a time of transition for what seems like months and I’m tired and I feel unsteady in the beginning of this season. I don’t feel like I’ve found my solid footings quite yet. I feel like a door with not enough layers of paint. But as I was slathering this paint on God said- I will finish the work. You may feel taped up and half painted now, but I will finish what I have started and it will be a work of art. Oh, I have the choice to leave the door in varying stages of ugly unfinish, but that’s not my ultimate goal and purpose for this door. And that’s not God’s goal for you. God doesn’t want to leave you in your doubt and in your fear- feeling unfinished and with no purpose. He’s not going to start the project and walk away. He calls us to keep walking with him, to continue taking each step arm in arm with him. And some of the best news yet is that when God started with you, there was no question! He has no apprehension about you like I did (and still do!) about my door. When he created you, he knew from the very start exactly what kind of masterpiece you will be. He has no regrets or doubts about you. Keep letting God make you who he wants you to be. Thin layer by thin layer.
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8/6/2021 12:03:52 pm
There's my girl...welcome back!
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