Yesterday was one of those days where things come to a screeching halt. Everything just stops. It seems like an eternity, but it's really only a minute. I'm not going to go into details about the situation as there are still aspects of it that we're dealing with, but it was one of those times when it's rubber meeting the road of our faith. But what I can say in the midst of all the chaos is this... I'm so glad that I serve a God that loves me and I'm so thankful I've been memorizing scripture. After I got over the initial freak out crisis moment, my mind was flooded with verse after verse about God's love, faithfulness, and provision. But it was this verse that stuck with me... The situation we were faced with yesterday could have been potentially devastating to our family. And we had no control over the outcome. There was not a single thing we could do except pray to be accepting of God's will and trust in his bigger plan. And after I prayed those things, I was filled with a peace I've never known before. To the point that in the midst of the chaos, all I could do was praise God for his love and his faithfulness to me and our family. It's something I've never experienced. I can honestly say this was the first time I've ever been able to "praise God in the storm". It was as if I could do nothing else. I was overwhelmed with a sense of love and thankfulness towards God.
In the 6 years Aaron and I have been together, we've been forced over and over again to trust God. We've been so totally out of control of so many situations that we've had nothing else to do but trust. And he's proven himself faithful time and time again. I'm finally coming to a point where God is the first person I turn to instead of the last. And because of that, yesterday I was able to say... God's got this. He hasn't failed us yet, and today isn't going to be any different. Even if the outcome isn't what I'd choose, there's a bigger picture. And this didn't surprise him. He wasn't caught off guard by this and whatever happens the day after and the day after, He knows all that too. And he's there waiting for us. If you don't know God, or you don't know him in a way that's deep and intimate, message me. Find another Christian, a pastor, someone. Ask them to tell you about God. About who he is and why he loves you so much. My desire for you is that when you're faced with a stressful, potentially devastating, totally out of your control situation, you can know that it's ok. It's not out of control. God's got it. He's got you. And he always will because he loves you beyond what you can fathom. I want you to know that God. And he wants to know you.
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kathy thomas
5/16/2013 11:42:13 pm
Jessica, I appreciate so much your blog and your honesty. You are a talented writer but more importantly it is obvious you are obeying and listening to the Father.
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