For so long I've tried to live my life a week or month at a time. I've always said "This week I'll do this", "This month I'm going to lose weight", "This week I'm going to count every calorie", "By next month I'll....". And I get a few days in and I've got no brown rice for the stir fry, so I stuff myself with pizza. Or I think, "ok, one cookie isn't going to hurt", and one turns into 5 or 10 and my week is shot. I'm coming to realize more and more that losing weight is about today. It's not about yesterday and it's not about tomorrow. It's only about what I need to do today.
I've been avoiding Weigh In Wednesday posts. I've been weighing in, but instead of losing weight, I've been gaining. I've gained almost 5 lbs of the original 20 I lost. When I stepped on the scale Monday and I'd hit that +5 lb mark, that was it. I felt like the Lord was saying "Is this enough yet? Are you ready to realize you are worth more than this? This is not who I created you to be!". And I know he wasn't talking about being overweight, he was talking about being defeated, frustrated, and feeling trapped by this cycle of failure. So yesterday, I did yesterday. Today, I'm doing today. When I didn't want to go run this morning, I told myself I'm worth more, this is not who I am and I packed up the girls and headed to the gym. When I wanted to stop my run 3/4 of the way through, I told myself I'm worth more, this is not who I am and I ran harder. I've got a long way to go. But today is today and that's all I need to worry about. Today I'll count my calories, and burn my calories, and work towards being exactly who God wants me to me. Eventually, all these today's will add up and I'll be at my goal weight. But most importantly, I'll be more like that person God created me to be! Are you being defeated by something? Do you feel overwhelmed by the size of it? Focus on today. Ask God for the grace and strength for only today and leave tomorrow for itself. After all, Rome wasn't built in a day!
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