I had a great run last night. I wasn't sure if I was going to get on in. Aaron worked super late plus we got a really bad thunderstorm. It rolled in just about the time I wanted to head out. But, wouldn't ya know, when it was over and the hubbs walked in, it was a nice cool 75 degrees (compared to the 100's we've been having) and perfect for a run. I had to be careful because there was mud in some places that I almost slipped on, but other than that, it was perfect conditions.
I was pushing myself to get back to exactly where I was when I stopped running 3 weeks ago. I ended up doing a 1:30 run to 1 min walk. At about min 16 I did a 1:30/1:30, but picked it back up to 1:30/1 until the end. That's the first time I've ever (almost) completed it. So, last night's run was actually better than any of the ones I did 3 weeks ago. I ran more than I walked. A year ago, I would have laughed at this possibility.
As I was running I was telling myself... your body can do this. It's your mind telling you to stop. Take control of your brain and stop listening to all the can'ts. Just do it. I would get a few seconds out from starting a run and I would just have to tell myself... just do it. Just go. And I did it. I think last night was the most satisfying night of running. I proved to myself that I can be in control and I can do it as long as I just push myself to. Nobody was out there yelling in my ear and no one was going to pat me on the back when I was done. And when I finished that last run it felt darn good!
I know to some of you distance runners our there, this might sound somewhat silly. But remember, I'm a XXXlb person that hasn't run in years! This is a huge accomplishment for me!